I asked my GP in January 2022 what my realistic timeline was. She said: two to three years of dim…
T=0: The Decision
38. Single. AMH declining. I had been having a version of the same internal conversation for two years — whether to pursue IVF with donor sperm, whether to wait for a relationship that might come, whether a child raised alone was fair to the child.
I asked my GP in January 2022 what my realistic timeline was. She said: two to three years of diminishing probability. I made an appointment at an IVF clinic in February. Not because I had resolved the questions. Because the cost of waiting while I resolved them was too high.
A healthy child. Making peace with the path.
6 Months Out
First cycle failed. The grief is specific — it is not the same as other kinds of grief. The clinic is compassionate and clinical simultaneously. I spent a week processing and went back. The cost to date is AUD $11,000.
“Have a support person who knows — the secrecy burden on top of the medical burden is significant. You do not need to announce it broadly but one person who can sit with you after results is essential.”